There are tons of guidebooks and manuals for what to do and what to expect for major milestones of human life.  You have wedding planners & tip books for when you want to get married, What to Expect books for when you are pregnant, more parenting guides for once those kiddos have made their arrival, […]

Tags: ashes to ashes, conversation, death, dialogue, discuss, dying, emotions, grief, grieving, guide, health, human, life, loved ones, people, talk
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Dear Heart, I’m on to you. You may think you’re sly, but we’ve been at this for far too long for me not to notice the SIGNS of AN IMPENDING ATTACK.  I used to be caught off-guard when you would suddenly speed-up without warning and go racing for what seemed like hours (and twice really […]

Tags: attack, fighting, health condition, heart, heart problem, life, medical, P.A.T., paroxysmal atrial tachycardia
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It was a year ago today that I discovered that the path God had for your life was so different from what I had dreamed of… this angered and terrified me – all at the same time. Though it took five more months to confirm (through official channels) the identity of your challenging nemesis, I […]

Tags: autism, child, control, God, life, love, path, remembering, trusting
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I love puppets, always have.  There is just something magical about fabric that is created into a doll or figure of a person or creature that is moved by strings attached to its limbs, or by a hand inserted in its cloth body.  Some of my most favorite puppets are the famously, world-renown Muppets® that […]

Tags: autism, challenges, happy, hugs, imagination, kisses, life, micah, overcome, puppets, sensitivity, strength, touch
Filed under: Micah, My Life

I’m up at 1:38am after going to bed.  I can’t sleep.  I’m a light sleeper and even the slightest noises can bother me and rouse me from my sleep.  When I do end up awake in the early mornings I find my mind thinks about the weirdest topics…case-in-point, the reason I’m writing this post. There […]

Tags: blogger, cherish, different viewpoint, disagree, ecstasy, every single moment, Facebook, gratitude, happiness, insomnia, life, love, micah, moments, mommy, not staus quo, parenting, special needs, young child
Filed under: Micah, My Life, Randomness

We finally received Micah’s autism diagnosis yesterday, after a 4 hour evaluation.  It’s actually a relief to get the official diagnosis because it’s been 5 months of chaos since he had language regression, since we first saw signs of autistic behavior & went to our first doctor’s appointment.  Since then, Sooooo many tests were done, […]

Tags: autism, diagnosis, life, medical, micah, son
Filed under: Health & Fitness, Micah

When I first started this blog website I intended it to be for me to critique foods and restaurants that I tried, hence the name of the website: Smashed Bananas. Since then there have been so many twists and turns, and so little time…I have also found that I am not the best at keeping  […]

Tags: autism, diagnosis, life, micah, scared, son
Filed under: Micah, My Life

My last post was the day after I miscarried a pregnancy.  I was deeply depressed, wanting to just curl up and hide in a hole….  That time seems so long ago now. One thing about life is that it’s constantly changing and you’re never stuck in one state for long.  It’s hard to grasp that […]

Tags: baby, change, God, life, pregnancy
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Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in Heaven, Where the love of our lost ones pours down through And shines upon us To let us know they are happy. Tweet

Tags: baby, grieving, heaven, life, miscarriage, pregnancy, sorrow
Filed under: Health & Fitness, My Life